This is my determined face!
One week on and I’m going to write another blog post. I’m currently in the middle of moving house and all the stress that goes along with that, but I’m determined to give this blog thing a real effort. I’m not sure how often I’ll be able to post, but I’ve already promised myself that I can’t feel guilty if a bit of time passes before I get back to it – as long as I know I will get back.
Part of the reason I’m so determined to do this is because I’ve had a rough year so far and I think this might be a good way for me to have something that belongs to me and no one else (except of course anyone that reads this). I feel like I’ve had enough excitement, both good and bad, already in 2014 and I’m looking forward to 2015 – is it too early for that?
On the down side… my husband’s grandmother passed away in January at the age of 92. She was a wonderful lady and I feel so blessed to have had her in my life.
On the up side… we found our dream house and we’re moving in a few weeks (regardless of the stress this creates I’m still counting it as a positive).
On the down side… my husband’s father is now in hospital for a few months (at least) because he has an infection in the heart valve that he had replaced 9 years ago and he might have to have another valve replacement.
On the up side… I tried out for the GB Women’s Masters (over 30s) Ultimate Frisbee team the other weekend and found out I made the team. I’ll be competing in the World Championships in Italy this summer.
As you can see, I wasn’t exaggerating about having a rough time so far this year. Its been up one minute and down the next for us – a typical roller coaster of a year.
I’m not sure anything I have to say is interesting to anyone else, but I’m a mum with two kids, a full-time job and a partner that works full-time as well. I’m not sure how we manage sometimes and I feel a bit like my head is spinning as we try to keep up with everything. It feels a bit like things are floating along sometimes and I have to remind myself to stop and enjoy it all. I’m fortunate that I have that little voice inside me that does take the time to ask me to stop every once and awhile (and that I listen to it, sometimes).
I probably don’t find as much time as I would like to play pirates with my little girl (she prefers this to princesses) or to build forts with my son (which get destroyed quickly and turn into a game of peek-a-boo), but I do make time every night to cook for them and read to them and spend every minute I can before bedtime. I probably make brushing teeth and putting on pajamas more of a game than a task in order to ‘play’ that little bit more but it works for us and that’s what matters I think.
I look back sometimes and wonder how I keep going, but I think that question answers itself really – you just keep going. It’s all a big daunting at times but somehow manageable (whether in the planned way or the more exciting, and sometimes unexpected, way).
How has your year been so far?